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Scared selfless : my journey from abuse and madness to surviving and thriving, Michelle Stevens, Ph. D

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"Michelle Stevens has a photo of the exact moment her childhood was stolen from her. In it, she's only eight years old and posing for her mother's beguiling boyfriend, Gary Lundquist--an elementary school teacher, neighborhood stalwart, and brutal pedophile. Later that night, Gary locks Michelle in a cage, tortures her repeatedly, and uses her to quench his voracious and deviant sexual whims. Michelle can also pinpoint the moment she reconstituted the splintered pieces of her life. Just a few years after being confined to a mental hospital and at the mercy of an alternate personality who kept trolling for sadistic men, she's in cap and gown receiving her Ph. D. in psychology--and the university's award for best dissertation. The distance between these two points is the improbable journey from torture, loss, and mental illness to recovery that is Michelle Stevens's powerful memoir, Scared Selfless. Gary Lundquist kept Michelle as his sex slave for six years. During that time, he waged a campaign of unimaginable cruelty. He pimped her out to countless men for prostitution and forced her to perform in 'kiddie porn' when it was legal and shown in Times Square. It took fifteen years, three hospitalizations, and multiple suicide attempts for Michelle to work through Gary's dark legacy. She suffered from post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), anxiety, depression, and developed multiple personalities. There was 'Chelsey, ' the rebellious teenager who told her boss to shove it; 'Vicious, ' a tween with homicidal rage; and 'Sarah, ' a sweet little girl who brought her teddy bear on a first date. In this harrowing yet unflinching look at her own experience, Michelle, who was inspired to help others heal by becoming a psychotherapist, sheds light on the all-too-real threat of child sexual abuse and the psychological effects on its victims and best methods for healing, based on her own struggle with PTSD and dissociative identity disorder (more commonly known as multiple personality disorder). Scared Selfless is an examination at the extraordinary--and inexplicable--feats of the mind in the face of unspeakably horrifying trauma and the story of Michelle's courageous road to healing, recovery, and triumph"--
Language
eng
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Extent
1 online resource
Contents
  • Introduction: Miracle on Geary Street
  • Part I. Abuse
  • Stalin's Chicken
  • The Pied Piper
  • Story of M
  • Tricks are for Kids
  • Part II. Consequences
  • Scared Selfless
  • Tommy, Can You Hear Me?
  • Rebel Without a Core
  • The Village Idiot
  • Part III. Healing
  • Daze of My Life
  • Searching for Judd Hirsch
  • All You Need Is Love
  • The Many Faces of Me
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9780698185562
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Scared selfless : my journey from abuse and madness to surviving and thriving
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Scared selfless
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my journey from abuse and madness to surviving and thriving
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Michelle Stevens, Ph. D
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Language
eng
Summary
"Michelle Stevens has a photo of the exact moment her childhood was stolen from her. In it, she's only eight years old and posing for her mother's beguiling boyfriend, Gary Lundquist--an elementary school teacher, neighborhood stalwart, and brutal pedophile. Later that night, Gary locks Michelle in a cage, tortures her repeatedly, and uses her to quench his voracious and deviant sexual whims. Michelle can also pinpoint the moment she reconstituted the splintered pieces of her life. Just a few years after being confined to a mental hospital and at the mercy of an alternate personality who kept trolling for sadistic men, she's in cap and gown receiving her Ph. D. in psychology--and the university's award for best dissertation. The distance between these two points is the improbable journey from torture, loss, and mental illness to recovery that is Michelle Stevens's powerful memoir, Scared Selfless. Gary Lundquist kept Michelle as his sex slave for six years. During that time, he waged a campaign of unimaginable cruelty. He pimped her out to countless men for prostitution and forced her to perform in 'kiddie porn' when it was legal and shown in Times Square. It took fifteen years, three hospitalizations, and multiple suicide attempts for Michelle to work through Gary's dark legacy. She suffered from post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), anxiety, depression, and developed multiple personalities. There was 'Chelsey, ' the rebellious teenager who told her boss to shove it; 'Vicious, ' a tween with homicidal rage; and 'Sarah, ' a sweet little girl who brought her teddy bear on a first date. In this harrowing yet unflinching look at her own experience, Michelle, who was inspired to help others heal by becoming a psychotherapist, sheds light on the all-too-real threat of child sexual abuse and the psychological effects on its victims and best methods for healing, based on her own struggle with PTSD and dissociative identity disorder (more commonly known as multiple personality disorder). Scared Selfless is an examination at the extraordinary--and inexplicable--feats of the mind in the face of unspeakably horrifying trauma and the story of Michelle's courageous road to healing, recovery, and triumph"--
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Stevens, Michelle
Dewey number
  • 362.76092
  • B
Index
no index present
LC call number
HV6570.2
Literary form
non fiction
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  • dictionaries
  • bibliography
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  • Stevens, Michelle
  • Stevens, Michelle
  • Adult child sexual abuse victims
  • Sexually abused children
  • Child sexual abuse
  • Mental illness
  • Healing
  • Women psychologists
  • BIOGRAPHY & AUTOBIOGRAPHY
  • SELF-HELP
  • FAMILY & RELATIONSHIPS
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Scared selfless : my journey from abuse and madness to surviving and thriving, Michelle Stevens, Ph. D
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Bibliography note
Includes bibliographical references
Carrier category
online resource
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  • nc
Carrier MARC source
rdacarrier
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text
Content type code
  • txt
Content type MARC source
rdacontent
Contents
Introduction: Miracle on Geary Street -- Part I. Abuse -- Stalin's Chicken -- The Pied Piper -- Story of M -- Tricks are for Kids -- Part II. Consequences -- Scared Selfless -- Tommy, Can You Hear Me? -- Rebel Without a Core -- The Village Idiot -- Part III. Healing -- Daze of My Life -- Searching for Judd Hirsch -- All You Need Is Love -- The Many Faces of Me
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ocn959080963
Extent
1 online resource
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online
Isbn
9780698185562
Lccn
2016043819
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computer
Media MARC source
rdamedia
Media type code
  • n
Specific material designation
remote
Stock number
17BB5BE4-C3CF-4688-B7BC-D7F0E9599D2E
System control number
(OCoLC)959080963
Label
Scared selfless : my journey from abuse and madness to surviving and thriving, Michelle Stevens, Ph. D
Link
Publication
Bibliography note
Includes bibliographical references
Carrier category
online resource
Carrier category code
  • nc
Carrier MARC source
rdacarrier
Content category
text
Content type code
  • txt
Content type MARC source
rdacontent
Contents
Introduction: Miracle on Geary Street -- Part I. Abuse -- Stalin's Chicken -- The Pied Piper -- Story of M -- Tricks are for Kids -- Part II. Consequences -- Scared Selfless -- Tommy, Can You Hear Me? -- Rebel Without a Core -- The Village Idiot -- Part III. Healing -- Daze of My Life -- Searching for Judd Hirsch -- All You Need Is Love -- The Many Faces of Me
Control code
ocn959080963
Extent
1 online resource
Form of item
online
Isbn
9780698185562
Lccn
2016043819
Media category
computer
Media MARC source
rdamedia
Media type code
  • n
Specific material designation
remote
Stock number
17BB5BE4-C3CF-4688-B7BC-D7F0E9599D2E
System control number
(OCoLC)959080963

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